Heavy Heart

My heart has been very heavy since Friday, I heard the news right before I went to Austin's school to help out with their class christmas party, and once I got there all I  could think of was those kids, sitting in their classroom just like all the kids in my son's class, and how their poor little souls had to suffer and go through what they went through and be victims of this horrible crime.



I know we are all holding our loved ones closer because of this I just couldn't imagine what the families involved in this city are going through. My heart and prayers go out to everyone in the Newton Community.

Oh christmas tree- link party!

I'm linking over at honey we're home  for this post! Today everyone is showing their Xmas tree!

We actually have two at our house, one is for the kids with all of their ornaments, we like to get one for each kid every year, that way when they get older they can keep their ornament and decorate with
their own family.

The other one is the family tree, and that one is pretty much the tree we hang our pretty ornaments, usually I like to change the colors around every year, so this year we went with green, silver and gold

here is the kids tree 

we got this ornament for Dylan this year 

sorry my pics are a little blurry I actually just uploaded these from  my phone camera, Ill take a better pic next time :) 

Xmas around the house

First of, I want to thank you for the nice comments in regards to my previous post. It has def been hard but everything happens for a reason and like I said before I feel very blessed with three beautiful and healthy kids.

So, since I have to catch up with some of the things that we've been up to, specially around the holidays!


Our xmas advent calendar activities

our elf Simon made his appearance December 1st

my wrapping, thanks to pinterest

well...

sorry its been so long since updating! but its been a rough couple of weeks/ month! its actually really hard for me to write this, since Im more of a private person, but I think it helps to let it out too.
 I had found out that I was expecting in October and it was a complete surprise to us!! we had actually just talked about stopping at three, but of course we welcomed this with opened arms, as any gift from above is a blessing! I actually had to take 4 HPT because the first two came out negative so I thought I was ok, but since aunt flow never showed, I decided to take another one and that one came up positive and of course to double check I took another one after that, and surprise positive again!

I had called my ob to make my appointment but unfortunately ended up in their office before then, due to some cramping and light bleeding, of course I was nervous but at the same time I didn't think too much of it, because I know sometimes that can be normal, well when I went to the doctors they told me that the baby wasn't measuring according to my LMP date so they thought I was probably off, but they decided to check me every week to see some process; even an ultrasound to make sure that it wasn't an eptopic pregnancy. Luckily it wasn't an eptopic and the baby seemed to be making some process until the 7th week when I started bleeding more and they noticed that the baby didn't have a hb.

I was devastated and so upset by the news, I couldn't believe that this had happened. I was so scared because they had told me to get a DnC and I had never gone through that! I went home trying to stay strong and not cry in front of the kids (luckily we hadn't told them  about the pregnancy ;or anyone really) With each pregnancy of mine I have always been cautious and aware that anything could happen and I had always told myself that if that was the case then there are no real reason why it happens but that it does happen to a lot. Well all those thoughts went out the window for me because as strong as I tried to stay, I couldn't stop crying and being so upset about it, but at the same time felt like I couldn't show my emotions because I had to be strong in front of the kids. I went on with my daily routines,but not showing or dealing with this led to so much anxiety and stress! I never realized how hard this would be!

It was definitely a hard month but Im at peace with this and  grateful for everything that God does for me and my family, specially my three little blessings that I have with me.

Creepy crawlers!

Getting in the spirit of Halloween and getting ready for Austin's Halloween bash this weekend!

The Big 3-0! and some random pics

So last week I turned 30!!! YIKES!!! I have always heard of people making a big fuss about this birthday, My respond to them is always "oh is just a number" or "30 is the new 20's" ha! well Im not gonna lie I did freak out a little bit when this birthday came around! I mean Im an adult now!!!, not that I didn't fell like an adult before, but if you know me then you would know that Im the biggest little kid EVER!

Despite the number, the age, or the milestone; I have to admit that Im feeling very blessed at where I am at my 30's I have wonderful friends and family and have been extremely blessed with three little munchkins and an amazing hubby(who will also be turning 30 next month) Yep I went for a young one!lol

Here is to being thirty, flirty, and thriving:)



spent my actual bday chaperoning Kayla's first field trip!

Hubby took me to one of my fav restaurants by the water for lunch 

Then surprised me with some friends at a Piano bar 

ended the weekend at the Redskins game, which we lost:( but I had to post this pic of Kayla during the national anthem using the wrong hand:)

a cake my mommy made 

and had to post this pic of Austin helping out his sister blow dry her hair  Love it!

some changes...

here and there have been happening at the Fick household, well its been about two years since we moved in but we are recently doing some renovating.. Our master bathroom was first here are some before and afters 

this is what it looked like when we moved in 

 some progress

 finally finished

 with the lights on I love how the chandelier looks

 some detail of the shower

So far we have finished the kids bathrooms and working on the kitchen tile, it is a huge work in progress but I love how its turning out so  far 

Monday Randoms

I'm so excited for cool fall weather! Don't get me wrong I love the sun, the beach, and everything about summer, but my favorite season by far is fall. I love it that is not cold or extremely hot! We actually just starting having some cool mornings and nights, but it's still pretty hot during the day, I mean Austin walks home from school sweating still:)

I know it will be a a week or two before it gets to the full fall lovely weather we are waiting for! In the meantime here are some of my favorite fall pins!

of course my all time favorite pumpkin spice latte is BACK!!

pretty fall decor 

a comfy outfit with boots a fall must have 

outside decor

and these are actually frappuccino cupcakes aren't they cute??

do you like the fall? what are some of your faves? ps sorry the pics are blurry I updated my post through my  phone :) HAPPY MONDAY!

1st day of Pre school

Our little diva went to her first day or Pre school on Tuesday, and she was So excited, she woke us up at 4am to go!!!! She is only going Tuesdays and Thursday's for 3 hours so it gives me and my little Chunk Dylan a little QT!

she also started her first day of dance class yesterday, so she's got a busy schedule this fall :)

Celebrating Love!

On Sept 6 me and the Mr celebrated 4 years of marriage! It's hard to believe that we've been together for 12 years and married for 4, with three little blessings!! I'm so happy that I married my best friend!


To celebrate we went to Ocean city to get a little beach action and it was very relaxing! The beach was very quiet since its pretty much off season.

we got our pictures done at the beach and this was the finished product hahha