Monday, December 17, 2012

Heavy Heart

My heart has been very heavy since Friday, I heard the news right before I went to Austin's school to help out with their class christmas party, and once I got there all I  could think of was those kids, sitting in their classroom just like all the kids in my son's class, and how their poor little souls had to suffer and go through what they went through and be victims of this horrible crime.

I know we are all holding our loved ones closer because of this I just couldn't imagine what the families involved in this city are going through. My heart and prayers go out to everyone in the Newton Community.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Oh christmas tree- link party!

I'm linking over at honey we're home  for this post! Today everyone is showing their Xmas tree!

We actually have two at our house, one is for the kids with all of their ornaments, we like to get one for each kid every year, that way when they get older they can keep their ornament and decorate with
their own family.

The other one is the family tree, and that one is pretty much the tree we hang our pretty ornaments, usually I like to change the colors around every year, so this year we went with green, silver and gold

here is the kids tree 

we got this ornament for Dylan this year 

sorry my pics are a little blurry I actually just uploaded these from  my phone camera, Ill take a better pic next time :) 

Xmas around the house

First of, I want to thank you for the nice comments in regards to my previous post. It has def been hard but everything happens for a reason and like I said before I feel very blessed with three beautiful and healthy kids.

So, since I have to catch up with some of the things that we've been up to, specially around the holidays!

Our xmas advent calendar activities

our elf Simon made his appearance December 1st

my wrapping, thanks to pinterest

Friday, December 7, 2012


sorry its been so long since updating! but its been a rough couple of weeks/ month! its actually really hard for me to write this, since Im more of a private person, but I think it helps to let it out too.
 I had found out that I was expecting in October and it was a complete surprise to us!! we had actually just talked about stopping at three, but of course we welcomed this with opened arms, as any gift from above is a blessing! I actually had to take 4 HPT because the first two came out negative so I thought I was ok, but since aunt flow never showed, I decided to take another one and that one came up positive and of course to double check I took another one after that, and surprise positive again!

I had called my ob to make my appointment but unfortunately ended up in their office before then, due to some cramping and light bleeding, of course I was nervous but at the same time I didn't think too much of it, because I know sometimes that can be normal, well when I went to the doctors they told me that the baby wasn't measuring according to my LMP date so they thought I was probably off, but they decided to check me every week to see some process; even an ultrasound to make sure that it wasn't an eptopic pregnancy. Luckily it wasn't an eptopic and the baby seemed to be making some process until the 7th week when I started bleeding more and they noticed that the baby didn't have a hb.

I was devastated and so upset by the news, I couldn't believe that this had happened. I was so scared because they had told me to get a DnC and I had never gone through that! I went home trying to stay strong and not cry in front of the kids (luckily we hadn't told them  about the pregnancy ;or anyone really) With each pregnancy of mine I have always been cautious and aware that anything could happen and I had always told myself that if that was the case then there are no real reason why it happens but that it does happen to a lot. Well all those thoughts went out the window for me because as strong as I tried to stay, I couldn't stop crying and being so upset about it, but at the same time felt like I couldn't show my emotions because I had to be strong in front of the kids. I went on with my daily routines,but not showing or dealing with this led to so much anxiety and stress! I never realized how hard this would be!

It was definitely a hard month but Im at peace with this and  grateful for everything that God does for me and my family, specially my three little blessings that I have with me.